I had to strain my ears to hear, her voice was so soft as she spoke, the emotion in her words, almost tangible. “That’s when we knew that things would never be the same,” she said, her eyes gazing off as if into some memory only she could see, tucked deep into the shadows of her mind. “I began to see more of the
She spoke like I hadn’t been there, I could feel all the itchiness of you-don’t-belong, you-may-never-belong and I stepped back, relying on my mascara cage to keep my heart back so it wouldn’t fall on the floor. I can’t lose it again. Push it back down, cover it up with drawings, music, and poetry and Youtube videos I don’t care about, just to keep it quiet, just to stop thinking and keep moving. It’s near impossible to bury yourself and keep walking.
When I entered the office, she was on the phone. I wasn’t sure why she called me in so I sat on the wooden chair by the door, feeling like I was back in primary school and waiting for corporal punishment. Then she turned to me and said, “I just spoke with the admissions committee. You have accepted you for the scholarship. You’ll go to the moon in two moons time.”
I had to strain my ears to hear, her voice was so soft as she spoke, the emotion in her words, almost tangible. “That’s when we knew that things would never be the same,” she said, her eyes gazing off as if into some memory only she could see, tucked deep into the shadows of her mind. “I began to see more of the
She spoke like I hadn’t been there, I could feel all the itchiness of you-don’t-belong, you-may-never-belong and I stepped back, relying on my mascara cage to keep my heart back so it wouldn’t fall on the floor. I can’t lose it again. Push it back down, cover it up with drawings, music, and poetry and Youtube videos I don’t care about, just to keep it quiet, just to stop thinking and keep moving. It’s near impossible to bury yourself and keep walking.
When I entered the office, she was on the phone. I wasn’t sure why she called me in so I sat on the wooden chair by the door, feeling like I was back in primary school and waiting for corporal punishment. Then she turned to me and said, “I just spoke with the admissions committee. You have accepted you for the scholarship. You’ll go to the moon in two moons time.”